So, I actually got up today for over 2 hours. I sat at my real computer and then flipped through some cards at my table. It felt good. Then I sneezed. I have been holding it back for over a week now. Let me explain recovery from surgery in the abdominal area in two steps. Rest and don't sneeze. I learned this when I had my appendix taken out (also as an emergency procedure). Sneezing was both the most painful think I have ever felt and the most scary on the internal sutures.
I winced when it came, but surprise...no pain. Ok, well, just a little, but nothing what I remember from before. I am not in pain in general anymore either. If I move wrong or breath a little deep, I can feel it. I am getting the healing spasms. Food is great though. I wish I had done this years ago, for obvious and personal reasons!
German. Ah, the non-love language. I took German for 3 years in high school. It was only required for 2, but I loved the teacher and all the students and most of us went the full 3 years together. I love German Magic cards. Just something about the harshness of the language makes it seem so forceful and angry. My daughter has decided that her two years of Latin (taking it because she wants to enter the field of forensics/anthropology) is more than enough in high school. After this she informs me that she wants to take German in college. I was excited, but realistic. I advised that she should take Chinese.
Wow, am I rambling. Well, that was a pure example of me taking my time to listen to things and pay attention to the small things. I think that Tori (my daughter) and I have not spoken past the shallow end in months and it was very exciting. I mentioned in a previous post that I am considering leaving Magic for a number of reasons. I am not sure why I chose Magic as the target, other than the fresh string of incidents and recent life changing event. I should have included all vices on the list of "do I need these things in my life." For one thing, I really miss playing guitar and writing songs. It was my life for just a little over three years in the band I helped form.(www.myspace.com/contrastband) It was fun AND gratifying and with initial monetary input, there was little upkeep cost involved.
Oh, vices, let me count the way: Magic the Gathering, MTGO, World of Warcraft, Painting, Drawing, Writing, and all the time spent researching each one of them. And let's not forget social media. I must check my phone 15 times a day to see what is going on.
I need to assess all of those vices I have, not just Magic. The Magic part of my life just had a string of things in a row that led me to question it. A majority of those things have been resolved with flying colors, but the question of if I want to spend my brain release time and money on it still looms. Of all my vices, it is certainly the biggest drain on the wallet.
It remains to be seen, but I can certainly say this week has been an eye opener for me in a plethora of different ways. I hope that I come out the other end of this tunnel with more than just a new diet and one less organ.
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